sometimes, i'd like to think of myself as independant
i dare to come out without anybody else's company..

but some other times, i get scared and think i'm just fooling myself into thinking i am independant..when in fact, i'm a coward inside

but right now, i'm in coffee bean alone..
drinking my Caramel Latte and enjoying my roast chicken & mushroom fusilli (which, i am struggling to finish)

why do ppl sometimes find it hard to be alone?
is it because we're too used to being in a crowd?
is that why people tend to get married after reaching a certain age?
fear of being alone?

I hope to get married at an early age..
is it because i'm scared that i have to spend the rest of my life alone?

perhaps i'm thinking too much
but i enjoy it

i enjoy coming up with funny scenarios and think of ways to solve it
like...

if i have a bf whom i love v much and one day, he realises he doesn't love me anymore and breaks up with me
then a while later, i find out that im pregnant with his child
i don't tell him and decide to raise our child alone
one day, i go shopping & while browsing baby items, i see him and his new gf (who is also pregnant)
he sees me and is shocked!
he comes talk to me and asks if my husband is with me
i look at him and say im still single
he looks at my tummy and is confused
he later finds out that i'm carrying his child
then one day, he discovers his 'gf' was actually cheating with another man behind his back
the baby she's carrying isn't his
he knows i won't take him back but he still wanna be responsible for his child
then years later, we fall in love again and become one happy family

hehe, Drama-rama...
it's from watching too many movies
ahhh, my not so innocent mind!